I feel like I'm at an impasse. That I'm stuck between what I've accomplished and what I have left to do. I'm tired.
30 pounds, I still have to lose 30 pounds. It overwhelms me. There are times I feel like it's freezing me in place. How is it that losing 100 pounds was not overwhelming? That knowing I had to lose 140 pounds didn't cause me to freeze yet these 30 left feel impossible?
They feel impossible. I have little reserves. The inspiration I'm finding in myself is sticking for shorter periods of times. I'm close to the end but I feel like it's miles away. I've been sick for more than a month. I'm back to traveling for work. I don't remember how I found the energy to do this. I'm tired.
I started this blog to share my journey but also to have people to support me when things got tough or I got tired. It's time to admit I'm tired. It's time to rally the troops.
If we talk, ask me how I'm doing. How my last workout was.
If we are planning to get together, ask me to go walking instead of to coffee.
If you think of it, email me telling me that I can do it.
If I don't blog, bug me until I do.
However you can think of it, I can use your help. My well of inspirational reserves is drying up fast, not lasting more than a day at a time, sometimes less. I typically hesitate about asking for help. I tend to struggle by myself more than I lean on others. But those habits are what got me to 280 pounds and are not what will help me lose the last 30. A wise woman has shared that you have to let people join in the celebration as well as the struggles. So I've shared my successes with you and look forward to sharing the success at the end but I could use some help to get there.
Think of chasing around your 2 1/2 year old nieces and your new three little niece and nephews!
ReplyDeleteKeep up the amazing work Sallie! You have been an inspiration to so many people! You look fantastic and I know you have been feeling great too! And like Julie said, you have a lot of little people to chase around - think of the fun that will be!!! You can do it! xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteSallie - keep up the great work - don't give up! You have been such an inspiration to me through your blog. I need to lose 25-30 and keep thinking if you can lost over 100 lbs I certainly can discipline myself to lose what I need to. I'm working at it and will be sending good thoughts you way that you are too! I was just sharing your story with fridns yesterday and saying how much you inspire me! Feel good about what you have done and keep moving! Love and prayers Sharon H.
ReplyDeleteSallie,
ReplyDeleteKeep in mind the weather and the time of year. I think everyone is in the pit of despair right now because we just need some freaking warmth & sun!!!!!!! I guess what I'm saying is, the sun will come out soon. You've done so much and I can see why you would be tired. You've formed some great new habits that will carry you towards your goal. Know that you are an amazing person with a lot of people who love you.
-Olivia