Holding On and Letting Go

April 4 has come and gone. And although more weight has gone, my goal weight has not yet come.

Easter Sunday I was out for a nice long run, finally healed after months of injury. It was significant that I was running on Sunday because that was the day that I had set as a goal day for me to accomplish my personal weight loss goal. This date was set in January before my travel schedule was booked and my foot was injured. I'd known for months I wouldn't meet the goal but rather than regroup and make a new plan I'd been beating myself up for weeks at my slow progress. I didn't stop but I wasn't giving myself any grace. I was breaking my number one rule for weight loss...forgiveness.

As I ran on Sunday I thought the phrase "holding on and letting go" which was used for Lent this season. Holding on and Letting Go. Isn't that an everyday balance we try to reach in life? We struggle with this balance of holding on and letting go, sometimes forgetting we have to just put our hand out wide to allow opportunity to come in. This run allowed me to let go of the goal I couldn't accomplish knowing I could hold on to the fact that no matter when it happened...it would happen.

While I was running and the phrase "holding on and letting go" ran through my mind, shivers ran down my arms. I let go of my disappointment, of my feeling of failure while I held on to the belief that if I just keep on running, I will reach my goal.

It was Easter, it was spring, it was a day to be reminded that holding on to faith in myself is more important than any deadline.