Sallie and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day or The Discarding of Indifference or A Day When I Cried but Then Went Walking

I kept thinking about this book today. I could never remember what the title really was but I did keep thinking "no good, very bad day!". Do you remember this book from elementary school? I forget how the book ends but all day I just wanted to curl up in bed, give up on the day and read this book.

Between the coworkers who were less than happy to help a girl out to the car in the shop that cost more than I wanted to pay and may not really be fixed to the unexpected HUGE doctors bill from 2007 that my funny health coverage may not reimburse because it is now 2008...the day was just stinky.

All day though, what I wanted to do (other than the above mention to bed and books) was to go for a long walk to clear my head and make me feel like everything would be alright. Funny how I thought a walk would do the trick...and how I really went for a walk! I think, ok know, my typical habits would have lead me to the freezer for ice cream, not the freezing sidewalks for a walk. As I was walking I wondered what had changed that made me want a walk and not a pint of Ben & Jerry's Coffee Heath Bar Crunch (it's made from Fair Trade coffee...I have to eat it. It's my way of saving the world!) The difference? There are so many but I what I decided to call it is a discarding of indifference.

I used to be so indifferent about so many things. My life was what it was and I was tired of trying to change it to make it any better. I know though, than my life is so much more than what I boxed it into and I know that I can change it for the better...I have the control to choose a different path. I get impatient at losing 0.2 pounds in a week but I have to remember that there are other things in my life that need to be changed that will take more time to alter than my weight. So I just keep keeping on, doing what I know will put me closer to my future, facing the things I have been avoiding in fear of being weak.

Here is what I think today. I think it takes a lot more strength to put on your tennis shoes, walk, face the world & your thoughts than it does to hide behind a pint of ice cream. Even if the ice cream does help to save the world. :)



PS. I heard that interval training can increase your metabolism so I even interspersed running into my outing...I soon realized that new shoes would be needed to make the impact of running comfortable so considering the car bill, doctors bill and my desire to buy things in Guatemala, I've decided to stick to some powerful walking. :)